2009年12月26日 星期六
2009年12月6日 星期日
除一下草
昨天在高醫打了四場全場的兄弟盃 ,全身酸痛
今天七八點就睡醒了,但是全身無法動彈
到了十點才勉強掙脫下床
這次的球賽很威,最近臨時惡補的慢跑特訓果然沒有白費,好欣慰...
這次兄弟盃的創舉除了學弟妹的感謝狀以外,還有開始有學長帶小孩來打球了...
以後小朋友滿堂跑,該不會要設立臨時托育中心或是考慮小兄弟也辦一盃,來個幼幼組
放了九天的假在家
悠閒無所事適
我想要再去造訪以前常去的地方
星巴十全店、大地游泳池、大統新世紀誠品、中正籃球場
莫名地入選役政署下半年度優良替代役一百名其中一員QQ
據說有獎金三千和榮譽假三天
禮拜三要去台中接受表揚受奬,順便要在台中好好地玩一玩
昨晚和砲哥閒踱去附近的五十嵐
還買了罪惡的鹹酥雞
是以前和春樓下的大哥在賣的
現在搬到五十嵐隔壁了
很久很久沒有吃宵夜和翹著腳在家裡看電影台
偶一為之
其實還蠻happy的
我覺的人掛掉後,會一直徘徊在某些地點不去是有道理的
因為我覺得自己某些時後感覺也像遊魂一般
在熟悉的記憶和場域間、lingering、流連忘返
物換星移、事過境遷、思緒更迭
我還是像潮水不厭其煩地刷洗、造訪這一片沙灘
寫下、拭淨
記下、忘卻
低潮、長潮、高潮、退潮
這一片不是回家的路,靜靜如北極星
總是指引我回家的路
回歸平靜自適的內心 —
我最安穩的居所。
我和剛滿月的小蘋果,她叫詹喬羽,還不錯夢幻的名字
2009年11月8日 星期日
Hello Saferide - Parenting Never Ends
Parenting Never Ends - Hello Saferide
song: Parenting Never Ends
album :More Modern Short Stories From Hello Saferide (2009)
artist: Hello Saferide
Mother, give me
back my old room
I won’t make a mess like I used to,
I won’t play my records
loud at nights,
I’ll keep it quiet
Mother, let me have my old bed back
and lay out clothes for me.
People give me work and money
They depend on me now,
if they only knew how thin the ice they walk on is.
If they only knew how thin the ice they walk on
is
Mother, please make
my decisions
like you once did,
this time I won’t pester you about it,
I’ll surrender
Mother, these streets
are too cold for me
I’m standing by your door
A plant under each arm,
let me move back in
Father, the last time you offered to teach me
all about the Baltic Sea, it was wasted on me.
Now I’m ready, throw me once again
the footballs you tried to throw and this time
I will catch and learn and know
Mother, if that’s not enough
bring me all the way back to
my original address
to your womb.
I have trouble sleeping but I don’t recall I had while in your womb.
2009年10月30日 星期五
2009年10月9日 星期五
2009年10月2日 星期五
Rachael Yamagata - Elephants
Elephants - Rachael Yamagata
artist: Rachael Yamagata
album: Elephants...Teeth Sinking Into Heart (2008)
song: Elephants
-
If the elephants have past lives
yet all destined to always remember
It's no wonder how they scream
Like you and I they must have some temper
And I am dreaming of them on the planes
Dirtying up their beds
Watching for some sign of rain to cool their hot heads
And how dare that you send me that card
when I am doing all that I can do
You are forcing me to remember
when all I want is to just forget you
If the tiger shall protect her young then tell me how did you slip by
All my instincts have failed me for once
I must have somehow slept the whole night
And I am dreaming of them with their kill
Tearing it all apart
Blood dripping from their lips and teeth sinking into heart
And how dare that you say you'll call
When you know I need some peace of mind
If you have to take sides with the animals
Won't you do it with one who is kind
And if the hawks in the trees need the dead
If you're living you don't stand a chance
For a time though you share the same bed
There are only two ends to this dance
You can flee with your wounds just in time or lie there as he feeds
Watching yourself ripped to shreds and laughing as you bleed
So for those of you falling in love keep it kind
Keep it good
Keep it right
Throw yourself in the midst of danger
but keep one eye open at night
2009年9月20日 星期日
Mojave 3 - Hard To Miss You
Hard To Miss You - Mojave 3
這是一張令人驚喜連連的專輯,未免太好聽了吧
artist: Mojave 3
album: Spoon and Rafter (2003)
song: Hard to Miss You
-
Wish that I could make you laugh and make you feel whole again,
I can not lay here on this line.
Wish that I could see you now, standing there without a care,
I guess you'd make me smile.
I'ts hard to miss ya, it's hard to miss ya...
They say the world's a smaller place but they dont' say it to your face,
it's a pretty stupid thing to say.
I don't feel it in my space, I don 't feel ya in my space,
I just want to see ya in my space
It's hard to miss ya, it's hard to miss ya...
2009年8月26日 星期三
2009年8月24日 星期一
The Grand Archives - Torn Blue Foam Couch
來自美國西雅圖的樂隊 The Grand Archives 2008年首發的這張同名專輯
好聽到爆炸
爆炸!!!
artist: The Grand Archives
album: Grand Archives (2008)
song: Torn Blue Foam Couch
Hold on the further waves are high,
sleepless every night,
lie down shading your eyes from everyone.
Hey darlin' don't you look fine,
so blue all the time,
when you're terrified.
Over and over the lines
you memorized in time,
now you're so tired
and the telephone's too far away.
Phone lives have taken all your time,
taken all this time,
for the rest of our lives we're terrified.
The photographs they've taken make you look blind,
your costumes made of twine,
now you're forgetting all of your lines again.
But hey darlin',
don't you look fine,
your two front teeth shaved
like ice and sharp as razors.
Hey darlin' don't you look finfe,
the dull look in your eyes,
you're terrified.
Holding the hands of our crimes,
darlin' don't you look fine,
as brave as we were those days.
Doing the best we knew how
on a torn blue foam couch,
as brave as we were those days.
Holding the hands of our crimes,
darlin' don't you look fine,
as brave as we were those days.
2009年8月15日 星期六
British Sea Power - Please Stand Up
“不列顛海的力量“專輯都好好聽阿
artist: British Sea Power
album: Open Season (2005)
song: Please Stand Up
Take me somewhere quiet please
These motorway exit gates
Are calling to me dearly
And I need a place to go
And even numbers on a timetable
Arrivals and departures and
Those places, names
Never seemed so strange before
If there's anyone asking, did you get a rush?
There's no point in asking, it wasn't enough
There's nobody else here, so please stand up
If there's anyone asking, did you get a rush?
There's no point in asking, it wasn't enough
There's nobody else here, so please stand up
The occultation of a summer sun
Was burning holes in everyone
Defenceless, what was left inside could finally escape
It seemed as if the streets had melted
It seemed as if the air was scented
I wish all of time could be like this
If there's anyone asking, did you get a rush?
There's no point in asking, it wasn't enough
There's nobody else here, so please stand up
If there's anyone asking, did you get a rush?
There's no point in asking, it wasn't enough
There's nobody else here, so please stand up
And then all of the sudden it's all better better
A little excitement makes us wetter wetter
Oh my love
Again, again, again, again my love
2009年8月14日 星期五
The Veils - The House She Lived In
live 版本
今天在板橋的新埔國中體育館成人健撿,一個早上看了四百多個口腔
有種快要往生的感覺,這種折壽的事情真得不能太常做阿
下午開心地補個眠,全身放鬆快要睡著之際,腦中突然浮現(牙)結實(石)累累的畫面
睡前驚了一下,還好在午後陰天大雷冷氣房中,一覺好眠,真得要睡飽才有精神,否則腦袋恍神感覺自己像阿飄
(下禮拜有七場老年農漁民健撿,禮拜一到理拜七 ><")
禮拜五從三峽場千里迢迢搬遷去萬里漁會 先做場佈發現萬里漁會就在野柳風景區旁邊
去石門沒有吃到石門肉粽,去三峽沒有吃到牛角麵包
這次我要看女王頭啦~(敲碗)

artist: The Veils
album: Sun Gangs
song: The House She Lived In
The house she lived in
is now all we're left with
it'll take a lifetime to pay for this
Al the nuns were singin'
and the crowds were immense
all the papers wrote it a different way
Those known desirers
her first admirers
all claimed that they were her favorite
But I know that it was
me alone she loved
though I still have nothing to show for it
Ain't no calling you back
I just want you to know
I've your voice on my head
and your frame on the wall
it all went wrong
but I wish you'ld've stayed with me
love stay with me
Her brother John said he ain't sure if she's dead
or just hiding somewhere away from him.
We all still remember
that cold December
with you lawn, and blaze, and razor blade drawn
Ain't no calling you back
I just want you to know
I've your voice on my head
and your frame on the wall
it all went wrong
But I wish you'ld've stayed with me
love stay with me
Oh love, when it's cold love
That's when I know love
That's when I know
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Well now it's all gone
I know I'll see you in the flowers
Now it's all done
Yeah I'll lay down there for hours
Now it's all gone
I know I'll see you in the flowers
Oh, honey, won't you come home?
I'd offer my soul
if I thought it might help at all
If I thought it might help at all
and I'd follow you down that road
If I thought it might help at all
2009年8月13日 星期四
黃小楨 - 大溪地
artist: 黃小楨
album: 黃小楨2
song: 大溪地
潮濕的地 雷陣雨 沿著想你的邊緣遊戲
曾經 聽到的 那只是 那只是
劃過的雲 我還可以 閒蕩 焦慮 清醒屋裡沒有你
約好住在漏水的公寓 一起接雨和拖地
等天放晴 到大溪地 或在家裡
你看(著)我睡醒
也許陽光透過玻璃上凝的水滴 好安靜
不需多說一句 潮濕的地 雨不停
靠著我 (還)有沒有你 遠遠的承諾
是真的 是真的 是你所有的表情
我還可以 合上眼 想起 忘記落空沒關係
靠著我 不可能忘記
2009年8月12日 星期三
Gliss - Beauty
artist: Gliss
album: Devotion Implosion (2009)
song: Beauty
(Martin Klingman, Victoria Cecilia, David Reiss)
Apple Sky Music (BMI), EccoEvangeline (ASCAP), Sickboy 59 (ASCAP)
Kiss lovers on the side of the road
You got nothing nothing to lose
And just the good times, the sad times will pass
You know you've got to give it a chance
Because the cool cool side is coming up
Oho oho oho but you love me I love you
Let's just let's just so much for beauty
You gotta save my soul
It’s just an empty hole
There's just nowhere to go
You walk slow I'll run after you in the sunshine
Oho oho I want it I really need it so much so much
I've got to give it a chance
Its just ooh what’s the point I'm wondering to myself
I've got nothing nothing but time
You’re just a beauty accuse some bodies
You got the arrow bang bang bang you’re dead
You gotta save my soul
It’s just an empty hole
There's just nowhere to go
You save my soul
It's still an empty hole...you got nowhere to go
La la la la la la la la la la ala la la
I've been wondering, you been wondering too
Like like I do just like I do
You gotta save my soul
It's just an empty
There's just nowhere to go...............
You save my soul
It's still an empty hole...you got nowhere to go
2009年8月11日 星期二
Gliss - Morning Light
artist: Gliss
album: Devotion Implosion (2009)
song: Morning Light
Well ya can't sit still
Nobody asked you to
When you close your eyes
Darling does it look so fine
In the morning light
Can't even see your face
In the morning light
I can't even see your face
In your heart
In your heart
It's a start
In your heart
In your heart
In your heart
Darlin' it's a start
Darlin' in your heart
Sitting next to me
Nobody could sympathize
Only in my dreams
Everything comes to life
In your heart
In your heart
It's a start
In your heart
In your heart
In your heart
Darlin' it's a start
Darlin' in your heart
Ahhhhhh ahhhhh... ahhhhhh
In your heart
In your heart
Darlin' it's a start
Darlin' in your heart
2009年8月10日 星期一
Lily Chou-Chou - The Wounds That Heal
Kaifuku suru kizu (The Wounds that Heal) - Salyu
這是岩井俊二電影“青春電幻物語(All thing about Lily Chou-Chou)“的電影原聲帶之一
這部電影發行了兩張原聲帶,一張是配樂版,一張是以片中的虛擬的歌手Lily Chou-Chou發行名為Breathe的專輯
去年冬天的時候一直在聽這張專輯
這張專輯的這首日本歌名叫—回復的傷
雖然沒有歌詞,可是反而給了整歌意境深遠的感覺
深深的踏觸到內心某個角落。
隨著Salyu的歌聲把某些堆積在角落的堅硬、緊繃、傷心、沮喪、憂鬱稍稍地釋放
一副我懂你,我知道,我了解
it's all right
it's okay
I'm still here地姿態撫慰著內心
最近突然想起這麼一首歌
這麼令人印象深刻的電影原聲帶
特別跑去敦南誠音找
我記得上次還有看到,但這次店員說已經賣完絕版了
航空版是限量的
而限量是殘酷的
我腦海裡湧起有一股求之而不得,抱憾終生的念頭
案頭現在已經亂七八糟了
代表我的生活也過的亂七八糟
沒有秩序,沒有整理,沒有反省
所以也沒有改變
還是不論環境還是做什麼事還是務求organized一點 阿
把東西整理地一目了然,層次井然
才不會從書堆挖到幾個禮拜以前新買沒看得雜誌
或是教科書被埋在深處,連驀然瞥見書名封面警醒要唸書暮鼓晨鐘的唯一功能都沒了
忙亂連睡前閱讀都中斷好久了
知覺蒙蔽,感覺麻木
連睡前平靜的時光都不能安心擁有
可憐一天中完全屬於自己的時間到底還剩多少?
自己有真正在做自己的時候幾希?
今天和昨天有什麼不一樣?
明天和今天會不會不一樣?
還是
只是起床上班睡覺起床上班睡覺,日復一日
沒有為每日做一個不一樣的標的,努力
所以每日都活地不明不白、不清不楚,該死的一樣
有一種之前從來沒有的食欲
如夢初醒的飢餓
在每一個方面都想均衡地、一步一步地設定目標,push自己去達到自己想要的樣子
我覺的這應該是一種心理學上暴食症
討厭總是關注表面only just skin deep的人事物
沒有自信的人開口閉口談論地都是別人,輕易地受別人影響
沒有理想的樣子
只有自己想要的樣子
2009年7月28日 星期二
Roxette - A Thing About You
I pick up the phone
I'm dialing your number
while I pray you're at home,
at home and alone
'cause I can't function on my own
And I'll never stop believing
The reaping is done
You are the one
The radio is on but the sound is all gone
And I wanna walk out in the sun
But lately that's been very hard to do
I've got a thing about you
And I don't really know what to do
'cause I've got a thing about you
Hey you
I pick up the phone
I'm dialing that number and
my heart like a stone
waits for the tone
Oh I can't make it on my own
And I'll never stop believing
I know what is right and this is so wrong
Alone in my bed, better off on my own
The TV is on but the colours are gone
And lately you’ve been painting my world blue
I've got a thing about you
(I've got a thing about you)
And I don't really care what you do
I've got a thing about you
(I've got a thing about you)
yea you
I've got a thing about you
I've got a thing about you-ou-ou-ou
Lately you've been painting my world blue
I've got a thing about you
(I've got a thing about you)
And I don't really know what to do
I've got a thing about you
Hoping this story cuts through
(this story cuts through)
Yea, I've got a thing about you
A thing about you
I've got a thing about you
I've got a thing about you-ou-ou-ou
And I don't really know what to do
I've got a thing about you (I've got a thing about you)
I've got a thing about you (I've got a thing about you-ou-ou-ou)
2009年7月20日 星期一
The Stars - Romantic Comedy
It's been five years, we've had good and bad
The ivy grows thick in our dark backyard
When I shave in the morning, you don't recognize me
I ask if you're still there and you answer "truly"
Don't walk away and then turn and say "I love you anyway"
Don't walk away and then turn and say "I love you anyway"
You come for the week to love me then you up and leave next day
So don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway".
You think you're so bad but you're just badly raised
You twisted and turned all the love that we made
I cannot hold on and I cannot let go
I was wasted at 15, never learned to go slow
Don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway"
Don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway"
You come for a week to love me then you up and leave next day
So don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway."
You pick the curtains and I'll pick the sheets
The silver anniversary will be the next time we meet
I loved you before and I'll love you 'til then
You're my foe and my brother and lover and friend.
Don't stay for the good stuff, there ain't none around.
I'll love you and leave you and drive from this town.
Before I give you the ring there's one thing you should know: you have 7 seconds before it's too late to go. So...
Don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway"
I never ever want to see you 'til our wedding day
Don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway"
I never ever want to see you 'til our wedding day
Come for the week to love me then you up and leave next day
I never ever want to see you 'til our wedding day
Don't walk away then turn and say "I love you anyway"
Don't walk away....
Jon Schmidt - LOVE STORY × VIVA LA VIDA
媽呀~起雞皮疙瘩了
“Taylor Swift的愛情故事“ cross over “Coldplay的生命萬歲“
竟然如此搭配
Jon Schmidt說有天在車上聽到Taylor Swift的love story
他七歲的女兒指出他最喜歡這首歌的某段旋律
於是他便興起想要mixmatch這段旋律的念頭
2009年7月17日 星期五
Tenth Avenue North - Let It Go
I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security
But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.
Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still, to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring,
So tell me what do you want from me?
But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go
What do I love?
What do I hate?
What will I lose?
What will I gain?
How do I save my soul?
What if I bend?
What if I break?
What will it cost?
What will it take?
For you to save my soul.
You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go
Tenth Avenue North - Lift Us Up To Fall
You move the earth
You hold the stars
Come move in us
Come hold our hearts
You send the rain
And life begins
So rain on us and reign within our lives again
We're waiting here
Waiting for you God
With our hopes and fears
We come empty hands held out
Lord draw us near
Heal these broken hearts
And lift us up to fall before everything you are
You lift the sun into the sky
You lift us up
Open our eyes
To see your face
And what you're done
You took the nails to give us love
And we stand in awe before your throne
There's no where else that we can go
We're waiting here
Waiting for you God
With our hopes and fears
We come empty hands held out
Lord draw us near
Heal these broken hearts
And lift us up to fall before everything you are
Come O Come Emmanuel
Come Lord Here to dwell
Let all your children lift one voice
We're waiting here
Waiting for you God
With our hopes and fears
We come empty hands held out
Lord draw us near
Heal these broken hearts
And lift us up to fall before everything you are
We're waiting here
Waiting for you God
With our hopes and fears
We come empty hands held out
Lord draw us near
Heal these broken hearts
And lift us up to fall before everything you are
2009年7月12日 星期日
最幸福的時候
從二樓搬到一樓
我的東西太多了上下樓折返跑近20多趟才搬完
冷氣壓縮機壞掉了。so bad
現在三個人擠在沒有空調的大房間內。so crazy
熱。爆。了。
我開始懷念從前205室冷氣吹很大,吹不用錢,吹到鼻黏膜因太乾燥而腫脹的日子
又變成合宿生活了,很討厭
各式各樣奇怪的習慣和干擾
放在我身後的的桌機運轉身像冷氣壓縮機般嘈雜。so upset
我只能戴上大耳罩耳機來隔絕干擾,聽著喜歡的音樂,寫一下網誌
有人睡覺要燈亮著才能睡
學弟一起床就抽菸,一大早在室內聞道煙味真的很令人生氣
唉~
很熱很熱,熱到無法思考,光是端坐書桌前不動就滿頭大汗
積極進取退縮到了原點
難怪赤道國家發展不出什麼哲學
昨天搬完家趕緊去燦坤抱了一台大廈扇回來吹
總算可以安穩入眠
大二時看不懂的電影時時刻刻(The hours, 2003)中一段話
“最幸福的時後,就是認為幸福即將到來的時候“
最近再一次看到這段話深有同感
週末回了高雄一趟
看到姊姊六個月身孕的肚子,真的已經吹起一顆又大又圓的氣球了
我忍不住跟姊說:借我摸摸看~
姊姊跟姐夫已經幫小蘋果買好了他的衣服、圍兜,兜巾,安全座椅,襪套...
每項花費都不便宜
姊直嚷著簡直像是在服侍老祖宗
最欠揍的商品是小朋友的襪套護膝,為了小朋友學爬行,保護膝蓋用的
媽說以前根本沒有在用這些東西,我們就粗勇地長大了
現在整個家族話題都打繞著這個尚未熟成的小蘋果
我可以感覺到大家笑臉的神情多漾著一道特別的光芒,尤其是老媽
最近的心情好的不得了,等待捧他的寶貝孫女
再等待三個月我們就可以見到小蘋果
見到小蘋果後再三個月,我就可以退伍
時間不快不慢,還是像往常般一樣地走
日子一樣規律地過,一二三四五,然後週末
不一樣的是大家內心對於未來的期待
期待好的轉變、期待幸福的到來。
就像1990年,我七歲時在和春戲院看的一部國片"1990"
張雨生等七匹狼當紅時期的演員歌星演的一部慢步調的電影
電影沒什麼特別的主軸和內容,劇情緩慢推展
但是充滿的都是對未來的期待和希望
我還依稀記得張雨生再據中養了一隻搶戲的黃金獵犬
依稀記得一幕他開著跑車在舊金山大橋上行駛,任微風吹亂頭髮的畫面
那個時期是台灣最富足,前景一片光明的時期
對目前的我來說
幸福等於退伍
所以
最幸福的時候,就是認為即將退伍的時候
剩下六個多月感覺還是摸不著邊際
好漫長
所以現在無憂無慮的我,除了有時候會擔心軍餉生活費不夠用
原來還不是最幸福的時候阿XD
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倒數毀滅28週囉唆排行榜
1
最近一進醫院大門都會先遇到穿白長袍帥氣英挺的藍醫師
在板橋遇到,在三重遇到
回高醫竟也遇到
(註:藍正龍最近代言疾管局20周年勤洗手活動的真人size人形立牌)
2
這次牙齒上了class 2 elastic,久違的拉緊的疼痛感重現
在診療台上傻笑給學姊看,學姊說要把我迷你的正中門牙拉出來一點,希望可以切到下唇
學姐說下顎的space也許再回診2,3次就可以關起來了
(開心開心,終於等到這天了,可望在退伍的時候finish,cool)
3
板橋三重這邊車子好多,每次騎車出門都很痛苦(新莊稍微好一點)
臺北的便當店好少,好吃的便當店更少,每天晚餐都很煩惱
儘管以前三不五時批評高雄的不是
我發現澎湖除外
我還是最喜歡高雄的
4
最近才發現高醫附近開了一家綠歐蕾(green aulait)很不錯
營業時間到凌晨2點,滿滿都是學生
原本的店面是大學常常光顧的百視達
上去二樓借洗手間,空蕩蕩,一片漆黑,有點像工地
但原本熟悉的裝潢、地板的塗裝都沒有改變
事過境遷好感慨
5
和兩位中年護理師的關係終於不再劍拔弩張,那麼緊繃了
改變心態、裝乖巧、唯命是從果然有改善
偶爾還可以閒聊一下
這樣大家上班都比較開心,日子比較好過
6
Docker的經典卡其褲超好穿
質料厚很有存在感、C/P值高、還防皺,防潑水
可惜台灣專櫃要退出代理了
2009年7月5日 星期日
喔~中奬了
禮拜天晚上洗完早照例就是整理內務的時間
桌面亂到沒有地方置手使用筆電QQ
於是開始整理凌亂被我裝在樹膠袋打包三四五六月份以來的發票
因為下單位已經是四月中旬了
所以我的三四月份的發票算了算只有40張
對了三四月份的號碼
40張裡面竟然中了兩張,一張200,一張1000
5%的中奬率阿,早知道最近有偏財運,應該去買張樂透的
超驚喜,超開心的,不敢置信的重複對了好幾次號碼,確認無誤
上一次我的發票中奬是高中的事了
去雄中對面的全家買一支15圓的杜老爺甜桶,那張發票中了3000
看了看兩張發票的品名內容都是在7-11買一瓶利樂包泰山黑糖仙草椰果的~cool
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週末懶得出門,悶在宿舍
斷斷續續看著痞子英雄(敗犬女王很生活化缺點就是太拖戲了,姑且丟在一邊)
下午躺在床上看書,睡著
睡醒繼續看,看了又睡著的老人生活
現在高鐵暑期優惠特價
買票回家都要揪團了
1355打折後剩一千出頭,省很多阿
2009年7月4日 星期六
小折、野外、my beloved
從台中成功嶺到台北市劍潭,在發配到台北縣板橋定居
在每個環境都有一批新的人要認識
我覺的在人生地不熟的新環境,內向是無法生存的
凡事都要自己主動出擊
電影侏羅紀公園中經典的一句話:生命最終會找到自己的出路
而人也是隨著環境而做出改變調整的生命個體
想當初小時候我可是超級內向安靜的小男孩
從出生不哭不鬧也就算了,到了三歲還不會講人話,家人都以為我是啞巴
我媽還急著要帶我從澎湖坐飛機來高雄高醫給醫生檢查有沒有缺陷
在這裡每次出遠門
騎車過橋去台北市都提心弔膽,緊張兮兮
在這裡沒有親人,熟的朋友很少
每次都會擔心萬一手機不見了、萬一機車壞在半路、萬一發生事故了
該怎麼辦,該找誰求救?
所以行車一定全神貫注,不若在高雄悠閒行車
不過擔心歸擔心
我發現在這裡車速越騎越快,偶爾自己都捏了一把冷汗
在高雄平常可能騎四五十吧,但在這裡大概都是六十起跳,八十為限
這裡的人口密度和車輛都太多太密集了,真的是地狹人綢
如果不刁鑽一點,速度快一點會被車陣卡的很痛苦,特別是一排公車的夾殺
在高雄的行車環境算愜意來形容了,很少公車從快車道切出來跟你爭道
看到在台北讀書六年的拔剌的網誌
寫到每次回高雄都會讓他感覺整個人放鬆下來,沒有防備自由自在
熟悉親切的環境
是在台北熟識的朋友們,才讓他在台北和高雄一樣感覺寬心
這正是我的想法,只是我在這裡朋友少
每次坐高鐵回家心情都很愉快放鬆
在高雄有我親愛的家人,有我的老朋友,我的同學們,有二十年回憶銘刻的一景一物
這個城市完完整整封裝我的摯愛,my beloved
每次回程的路上
就開始提高戒備,整個人緊繃地武裝起來,下車後形色匆匆地沒入人群
短暫地獨居三個禮拜
也許再過一個禮拜,三重的未來室友就要搬過來
自己獨居很開心,回房間門關起來就是自己的天地,不用擔心音樂放太大聲
可以隨心所欲想睡就睡,想熄燈就寢就就寢(這是繞口令XD)
但是缺點就是離開房間都隨帶著鑰匙,順手鎖上門
雖然真的感覺比較自閉少語沈靜了一點,
但是我有自信自己即使一個月繭居不開口跟任何人講話溝通,也是可以活的很好的,ok的
每個人都有講話與聽話的想望
有的人想講,希望有人聽
有的人想聽,希望有人講
這個就是情感的交流的需求
想表達的想法有出口能抒發,
如果大家都搶著出口,沒有進口
情感只是被私自傾倒丟棄在空氣中
沒有所謂的溝通交流
然而大家都靜默無語,被動等待別人的發言
也沒有所謂的溝通
生命會找出路的,想法也會找出口的
果然最近網誌書寫量增多,囉哩叭唆的
雖然這也只是我積累很久想表達的心得感想,只是終於脫口而出
禮拜五坐在電腦前趕了一整天的體檢報告
key數據,打警語建議,調整表格弄到眼都花了
下班決定無論如何都要去慢跑,讓失魂落魄的靈魂之窗再度恢復應有的靈魂並且放鬆全身
讓我信任給我安全感的耐吉慢跑裝配上身,前往附近的新莊縣立體育場跑步
半路下起了雨
但風雨無阻,我已經做好了淋雨的萬全準備
全身都是dryfit輕量化的衣物,不怕風吹雨淋
但我得意的過早
雖然做好淋雨的萬全準備
在大雨中淋雨漂泊得很開心
但是我並沒有做好運動的萬全準備,因為場地都是溼的
不想坐下來拉筋暖身,腳一踏上跑道,拔腿就開始跑
第八圈右膝開始感覺不適
但是又告訴自己不能半途而廢,撞牆期終於到來了嗎?矜過去~
只跑八圈是半途而廢
但跑完十圈是卻是整途全廢—我的右膝腫痛,不對勁了
禮拜天騎腳踏車去烏來也不能跟了><
大故事小啟事
這個故事告訴我們察覺到自己不舒服,就把那些什麼勵志話語一鼓腦丟再一邊吧
量力而為,身體為重,健康為大。
週末照例半夜去洗衣服,看著樂活單車雜誌,等待衣服洗好
心情很愉快的提著一袋香噴噴的衣物滿載而歸
半夜人車稀少,大地安靜無語
穿著喜愛透風的球星球衣,不戴安全帽,任涼涼的夜風拂拭著肌膚,搓揉著髮梢
就是這種感覺
我喜歡的感覺
中山大學裡面山路的感覺
親近野外大自然的感覺
抬頭
在衛生局的上空看到皎潔的月光投射在四周蘙霧的雲層
好迷人阿~今晚的月亮
在家門口
機車沒有熄火,我短暫地停靠在路邊仰望
第一個想到:好久沒烤肉囉?烤肉的季節好像接近囉?
第二個想到:究竟多久沒有去荒郊野外玩了呢?我,好想,好想去。
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退伍後我想買一台小折
我的夢想是開休旅車載小折、my beloved出去玩
買小折後,是不是夢想就算完成1/3呢?
2009年7月1日 星期三
今天還是很囉唆
明天聽說又有三個替代役學弟要來報到了
真不知道醫院是怎麼一次要來這麼多名額的?
去年一整年以來這間醫院最多也只有四個替代役
室友學長之於我們這些替代役就如柯博文之於變形金剛一般
如今學長退伍了
剩下三個
再來三個
咦~
剛好可以報兩隊
打麻將也很好湊一桌
七月下旬又有大變動
三重那邊的宿舍因為捷運出口在附近,為了顧及外觀好看,要拆掉
所以住那邊的院內員工
要全數遷過來板橋
然後醫院很摳不肯多花錢隔間,另外弄出一間浴廁
變成女生要跟我們同住一層樓,比鄰而居,共一間衛浴???
很難想像
使用小便斗的時候,女生在旁邊往來進出化妝,照鏡子,洗澡???
有點誇張
20個使用一間淋浴間???要抽號碼牌嗎???還是要先掛號預約???跟洗個澡要跟在成功嶺一樣拼
如今已院內公告勢在必行,但我仍充滿一堆疑問
一個機構組織制度不好
同樣的錯誤就會一錯在錯,所謂制度殺人我每天在三重的大廳櫃檯,每天都面對同樣因標示不清不明而疑問的病友民眾
,不厭其煩地回答同樣的問題
我也沒有看什麼從善如流的改善,就看著放任無人聞問的錯誤、不對的事情, 一直錯,一直錯下去
結論是
以後就不能穿著四角褲,在外面的走道大搖大擺走來走去了
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學長退伍的時候
院內19位指導過的主治醫師還有院長、秘書都給他在飯店辦歡送會
學長説好大的面子他承受不起,但是他最後還是帶著熬夜沒睡寫好的19張卡片和黑眼圈赴約了
我很難想像這個畫面
依現在我在健檢中心和兩位護理師的工作氣氛
我已經在心中先走演一遍退伍前最後一天的畫面
像往常一般把打好的報告丟在桌上,離開
以後就不要再見面了
來這裡三個月被兩個智商加起來剛好160的護理師呼來喚去,頤指氣使,弟弟來弟弟去叫個不停
每天穿著醫師袍換報紙、泡咖啡、端茶、給熱飲機添水、影印、裁紙、般東西、送檢體、帶賓客逛醫院...
總歸就是龍龍總總的雜事
只有要檢查口腔的時候再來賓前才會正式稱呼我的名字
我最討厭聽到一句話:你是來當兵的!!
對~我是來服兵役,
但是是內政部管轄,不是國防部
我是來服兵役,盡國民義務,社會役在社會裡不是在營區裡面
對人能不能有基本的尊重?
老實說
這三個月我的臉比大便還臭,我很不爽,每天上班都很不快樂
雖然還是很討厭她們的粗魯、講話大聲沒有條理、每天都一直抱怨講負面的話、三不五時給我報告壓力的威脅和指控
但是最近我慢慢學著
認命、聽話、乖巧
如果我還是繼續抱怨,負面思考,很不快樂,那我自己就跟我討厭,想躲遠遠的人的個性一樣了
現在我只有體檢病人的時候,才會穿醫師袍,這樣我心裡會比較好受
如果被呼來喚去,那就去
代表我可以起身活動筋骨,不要再盯在電腦前面趕報告,明明是因為高度近視進來的,卻做這個最傷眼力的事情
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因為單位滿五個替代役男
依法可以拔擢遴選一位管理幹部,受訓一個禮拜
然後就升官發財啦
薪水加給後整整多六仟阿~~~
我我我(舉手)~
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無法在康河的柔波裡招搖
你是否依然甘心做一條水草?
(大姐PTT耐人尋味的簽名檔)
7/1
七個月算是還蠻長的一段時間,看著室友學長、同學們紛紛退伍還歸自由自身
心裡莫不欣羨
室友學長休退,我開始我的獨居生活
我發現我還是很準時的七點半自動起床
一個月之前的一天早晨七點三十分慣常在學長刮鬍刀運轉聲中醒來
下床後第一件事情就是把手機湊向學長的臉,然後開啓錄音功能
學長臉死死的問(學長通常睡醒都會坐著發呆半晌):你在幹嘛?
我說:就是這個聲音,我要把他設為鬧鈴聲XD,你刮鬍刀的聲音比我的鬧鐘還管用,這樣學長退伍後,就還是可以叫醒我
然後
隔天
七點三十分
學長又規律地刮著鬍子,每一天都是同樣的話面聲音起始一天
順著我的手機鬧鈴發出地刮鬍刀聲響
我欠揍地把手機挨在下巴,做起床上在蚊帳中裝模做樣地學學長刮起鬍子,手機因鬧鈴還會震動
真的是機亂可真,惟妙惟肖
學長最終忍俊不住,噗哧一笑
因為獨居,我終於可以恢復聽著音樂幸福入眠地習慣
現在很討厭的是,沒有遙控器,有時候太吵太煩聽太暱的音樂想跳過
有時聲音太大聲
這時候不得不掃興地破壞細細紮好床鋪的蚊帳,冒著一萬萬一的風險
(蚊帳外一萬隻蚊子飛舞,任何一隻飛進蚊帳內而不察,雖然蚊帳拉下關門放人蚊子必然不得好死,但我當晚也不得好眠)
蚊子在耳邊高頻率振翅的聲音,是全世界最噁心的聲音之一,我好幾次因過度反應而拉傷肩頸
隔天轉頭看人要慢慢扭動上半身才能夠正眼看人
不過最近發現itouch可以當itune remoter使用
只要上itune store就可以下載apple官方免費的remoter程式
連上網路的macbook簡單設定一下可以當無線基地台讓itouch上網,藉此wifi再回去遙控itune
現在
我可以躲在蚊帳內運籌帷幄,再也不用冒著暗夜中一萬萬一的風險,拉傷肩頸肌肉隔天舉止被路人猜疑年紀輕輕即中風之嫌的風險
itouch變成遙控器使用地時候,可以顯示現在正在播放的曲目名稱,專輯圖示,可以像是在聽機子內的曲目般,輕鬆地切換選擇自己itune上的播放清單、控制聲音大小、編輯自選曲目、如同ipod上的操作一般
昨天就聽著陳綺貞全部的專輯所有曲目隨機播放(仍不失為助眠歌單),從下班吃完晚餐,刷好牙後六點半一直狂睡到凌晨一點半
這個禮拜有點懶,規定自己一個禮拜內運動至少慢跑游泳三次宣告破功
每天下班都覺得好累喔
每次在回板橋的接駁車上都完全睡死,頭隨著顛簸擺盪一直撞著車窗玻璃(會嚇到路人吧),口水半空之中懸而未決QQ
明天禮拜四是開心的小小週末
也是一個禮拜精神最振奮的一天
因為有球可以打
我想明天如果沒有辦法趕進度的話
只少也要加班。
(典故出自於某個趕搭晚上10點多高鐵返鄉的禮拜四,八點才到球場,很積極的熱身,跟張信豪發下豪語:今天要提早走,我要火力全開趕進度了
連贏三場後,場上來了一隊平均185能切能投能搶的壯漢,我軍一直吃鼈,屢戰屢敗,節節敗退,說好預設提早起身離開的九點已到,張信豪云:阿傑你怎麼還在這裡?我只好訕訕地回答:趕進度不成,留下來加班阿。(場下眾人笑)結果多加班20分鐘,最後失去回宿舍好好洗個澡在香噴噴地返家的機會,趕回宿舍連忙只換了件上衣褲子,機車催了就走,然後上高鐵臭別人)
2009年6月28日 星期日
God Help the Girl - Come Monday Night
第一次聽到感覺怎麼那麼有Belle & Sebastian的味道
結果後來查到竟是貝兒與賽巴斯汀的Stuart Murdoch製作的音樂劇同名原聲帶
女主唱叫Catherine Ireton
da da da da da dum
da da da da da dum
da da da da da da da da
da da da da da dum
da da da da da dum
da da da da da da da da
Come monday night the day of work is done
Tuesday morning lose the grey of ordinariness
Start by putting off your chores
And all the crushing bores
Say your morning prayers
Sing a rousing song
Then sing it on the long walk home
Come monday night we're in a state of praise
Twenty-million boys are caught up in a paper chase
If the weekend promised much
Then it failed to touch
On a single count what i was hoping for
What i was hoping for
Come monday night we turn the telly off
To listen to the silence
Light that comes in from outside
If you could catch it all
And pin it to your wall
Then you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Maybe you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Maybe you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Maybe you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Maybe you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Maybe you would sleep much better
Baby you would sleep much better
Lucky Soul - Lips Are Unhappy

Shake, shake, shimmy.
You know that you soothe the aches and the troubles within me.
Pretending that everything's cool,
When I'm twenty seven shades of blue,
And my lips are unhappy without you.
My lips are unhappy without you.
Honey suckle, you're missing.
But I make the morning dew glisten,
By just hoping and wishing.
Pretending that I've got a clue.
When I'm twenty seven shades of blue,
And my lips are unhappy without you.
My lips are unhappy without you.
Shake, shake, shimmy, shimmy, etc etc etc
Lucky Soul - It's Yours
Its Yours - Lucky Soul
如泡泡糖般五彩繽紛,如冰淇淋般冰涼甜蜜,Lucky Soul的音樂讓人體驗到純粹的美好,單純的浪漫、單純的快樂與單純的憂傷,就像女主唱Ali的聲音般晶瑩剔透。
成軍於2005年的Lucky Soul來自於英國倫敦東南方,共有六位成員,女主唱Ali Howard有著亮金色的娃娃頭髮型、深隧的黑眼線與長長的假睫毛,嫵媚、甜美又悅耳的嗓音,你可以說她是The Cardigans再現,也可以說她是復古版的Sixpence None The Richer。
2006年發行首支單曲《My Brittle Heart》,被英國的衛報(The Guardian)評選為當週最佳單曲,有著「令人難以忘懷、如同象群過境般無法招架的絕妙旋律」。同一年六月他們發行第二支單曲《Lips Are Unhappy》。接著於2007年初發行的《Ain't Never Been Cool》被BBC Radio 1的DJ Colin Murray選為2007年的前二十大單曲。同時Lucky Soul也展開一連串的巡迴演出,足跡遍及歐洲、日本、美國、俄羅斯,並曾經是Bryan Ferry世界巡迴的暖場樂團。
2007年四月眾所矚目的首張大碟「The Great Unwanted多餘的美好」發行,獲得媒體一面倒的好評,英國最具代表性的獨立報週日樂評(Independent on Sunday)與最受歡迎的地鐵報紙Metro均給予五顆星的最高評價;衛報、泰晤士報(The Times)以及權威音樂雜誌Uncut也都給予四顆星的高分。
Lucky Soul所受到的音樂影響非常多元,有Motown, Dusty Springfield, The Smith, New Order, Kinks, Blondie, Minnie Ripperton等。專輯的開場曲《Add Your Light To Mine, Baby》一出現就彷彿陽光照在草原上般地閃亮輕盈,《One Kiss Don't Make A Summer》有著單戀女孩的不知所措,《Lips are Unhappy》的輕快俏皮讓人跟著一起跳躍旋轉,《My Darling, Anything》是戀愛中的幸福洋溢,《Get Outta Town! 》是精彩絕倫的60年代復古搖擺,《The Great Unwanted》以弦樂與合聲營造如夢一場的逝去戀情,《My Brittle Heart》唱出心碎女孩的淡淡憂傷,《It's Yours》是抒情動人的慢版情歌,最後一首長達十分鐘的《The Last Song》將女主唱Ali的甜美與性感發揮到極致。

I've been standing out here in the
cold so long that I'm
just 'bout freezing now
I'm just about freezing now
The one sucker punch it went and
caught me wrong and I'm
just 'bout breathing now,
I'm only just breathing now
It all comes back to me, I know
it all comes back to me
but it's yours,
anything that you ain't
never got given before
Take it all if you're with me
I've no need for anything more
and I would be on fire
It's me that makes you shy
Just try it one more time
Let me glimmer in your eyes
I've been trying not to tread on
anybody's toes but I'm
just so clumsy now
I can't stop falling down
I've got a little secret no one's s'posed to know
but I can't help blurting out
you're all I've got to think about
It all comes back to me
I know it all comes back to me
but it's yours
anything that you ain't
never got given before
Take it all if you're with me
I've no need for anything more
and I would be on fire
It's me that makes you shy
Just try it one more time
Let me glimmer in your eyes
but it's yours
it's yours
it's yours