Belle and Sebastian - Is It Wicked Not To Care

Is it wicked not to care when they say that you're mistaken

Thinking hopes and lots of dreams that aren't there?

Is it wicked not to care when you've wasted many hours

Talking endlessly to anyone that's there?



I know the truth awaits me

But still I hesitate because of fear



Skipping tickets making rhymes

Is that all that you believe in?

Wearing rags to make you pretty by design

Rusting armour for effect

It's not fun to watch the rust grow

For it will all be over when you're dead



Counting acts and clutching thoughts

By the river where the moss grows

Over rocks the water running all the time

Is it wicked when you smile Even though you feel like crying

Even though you could be sick at any time?



But if there was a sequel

Would you love me as an equal?

Would you love me till I'm dead?



Instrumental



If there was a sequel

Would you love me like an equal?

Would you love me till I'm dead?

And if there was a sequel

Would you love me as an equal?

Would you love me till I'm dead

Or is there someone else instead?

Hard-Fi - Cash Machine

巴黎夜未眠ensemble,c'est tout(Hunting And Gathering)電影原聲帶裡收錄的一首歌

找了一下是一個不認識的Hard-Fi樂團唱的

找了它們專輯來聽，發現是又是一個新奇古怪的酷團

這首cash machine很有趣

很適合電影片段拉風的場合，忍不住跟著手舞足蹈起來 哈

另外還有素白乾淨版本的MV，我置底



Go to a cash machine

To get a ticket home

Message on the screen

Says don't make plans, you're broke

No, no this can't be right

I know that time is tight

I've only just been paid

Three weeks five days, til I'm seen

Right...

No...

I scratch a living, it ain't easy

You know it's a drag

I'm always paying, never making

But you can't look back

I wonder if I'll ever get

To where I want to be

Better believe it

I'm working for the cash machine



I try to phone a friend

My credit's in the red

I try to skip the fare

Ticket inspector's there

No no, this can't be right

I live an honest life

It seems like sometimes

You don't cross the line

You don't get

By...

No...



I scratch a living, it ain't easy

You know it's a drag

I'm always paying, never making

But you can't look back

I wonder if I'll ever get

To where I want to be

Better believe it

Yeah...



What am I gonna do

My girlfriend's test turned blue

We tried to play it safe

That night we could not wait

No no, this can't be right

She said it would be alright

I can't afford to be a daddy

So I leave tonight...

No...



I scratch a living, it ain't easy

You know it's a drag

I'm always paying, never making

But you can't look back

I wonder if I'll ever get

To where I want to be

Better believe it

I'm working for the cash machine

Cash machine

Cash machine ...



There's a hole in my pocket, my pocket, my pocket

There's a hole in my pocket, my pocket, my pocket

There's a hole in my pocket, my pocket, my pocket

There's a hole in my pocket

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

走過2007

在2007的最後一天

我想起了2006的最後一天

那時候我在南橫的關山嶺山

跨年是在台東縣利稻民宿，睡夢中度過的

為了迎接2007年最後一道的曙光

在冷颼颼的半山腰 動彈不得 身陷險境，身死關頭的時候才會想到在家翹腳看電視吃東西的幸福



今年總算是在這樣平靜安穩的環境下度過2007跨年

一群認識第11個年頭的老同學大家聚在一起吃火鍋、打麻將、吃湯圓

最近吹起帶自己的男女朋友介紹給同學們認事的風潮

感覺相當溫馨，值得鼓勵

爆料、笑料不斷 大家訴說解說著過去他們來不及參與的有趣往事



不過我好像越來越懶，越來越喜歡讓自己邊緣化

連續兩次去唱歌，都選擇安安靜靜的看著MV，嘴裡吃著食物，兩次最後都睡著了

吃完火鍋自己倒頭就睡，離開人群自己下樓去看電視

是老、是累、還是懶

我已經有點分不清楚，只不過是開始喜歡把自己放在最安穩的位子，做自己安心的事

況且也沒辦法像從前當作沒有明天般的狂歡

沒有這樣的心情，沒有這樣的體力

這樣盡情玩樂的結果就是換來一整個禮拜的勞累和懺悔



2008年的第一天凌晨

吃著芝麻湯圓 一個人看著迪士尼頻道在播的歌舞青春，覺得非常平靜開心

最近我的房間整修好了，我已經無法辨認出他原本的樣子，因為全部都換新的

新的油漆、床具、梳妝台、彈簧床、木頭地板.......

只剩下在詩肯柚木訂的電視櫃和桌椅還沒送來



躺在加大舒服柔軟的床墊上打滾，深陷在厚實的棉被中無法自拔

沒事就睡覺慢慢我被培養成一個新興的興趣了

這正是我夢寐以求的睡眠環境阿

誰還願意沒事亂熬夜、幽寐難眠、向周公說不呢

這樣的幸福都是媽媽給的

他的寵溺下我得以過著像貴族一般的生活



不過這都是外在的環境，並不可靠，皆能一炬付之

"心是最安穩的住宅" 有句話是這樣說的

"心安茅屋穩"

只有充實自己的心靈，提升自己的靈魂

才是能夠自由支付給予，自給自足不假外物的幸福阿



多往好處想吧 我說

如果人生本來就已經這麼糟了

再不樂觀一點的話，我想也沒有活下去的理由與動力了吧

look up the brightside看好的一面吧

就像我們喜歡欣賞美好的事物

就像黑暗裡靠著光明引領方向一樣

你可以自己決定你自己對人生的看法與註解



痛苦的人沒有悲觀的權利

換句白話說

如果你身體已經不健康了，那就別再嘗試吸菸吧



最近一直想到陳曉東"感情不是一盞燈"這首遠久的歌的歌詞

"感情不是一盞燈"

"隨便燒亮了體溫"

"然後決定關了它"

"就關了它"



當初國三並不是很理解林夕歌詞這樣的比喻

不過現在好像慢慢理解了

感情並不是一盞燈

並不能呼之即來，喚之即去

自私地在自己被寂寞打敗了才想起，被熱鬧盈繞包圍時卻是那樣的漫不在意，棄若敝屣





看著人們莫名歡欣地跨年慶祝2008年的到來，沿街對著不認識的路人叫喊新年快樂

面對著福禍未知、生死未卜的2008年，憑什麼有這樣的把握與理由如此歡欣鼓舞，歌舞喧騰?

2008年真的會比較幸福快樂嗎

我不知道

但是這是一個嶄新的開始

一個可以試著改變的機會

可以試著把握機會



改變






這是一篇雜亂無章的流水帳