呵呵

晚上自己一個人的空閒時間心情總是特別好



看到了我知道但是不認識的人的故事



心情特別好，原來日子也可以麼開心過下去



原來多去看看美的東西，好的事物



自己才會發現耽溺在以前泥淖的可怕



我討厭沒事就悶悶不樂的自己......



從現在開始我要想辦法讓自己每天都可以笑嘻嘻的

超我的叮嚀

這段日子很難熬我知道~



見習很累、很忙、很空虛我知道



日誌每天要寫、morning meeting要很早起、teaching很煩 我知道



每天心情都很鬱悶別人不想裡你 我知道



但是能不能請你 閉上你的嘴巴 停止你的報怨



就是咬緊牙關撐下去......



就是撐下去...............



(唉~超我又在叮嚀本我啦)

Everybody's changing

You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it

I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Says everybody's changing

And I don't know why



So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same



You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right



So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same



So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

一切都好糟

一切都好糟



我絕對不是你們想像中的那個樣子



因為我從來沒有任何惡意



還是一切都從忌妒、愛惡中萌了芽.....



總之我沒有惡意.....雙手高高舉上.....我投降了



可以了吧~



你們贏了

還是

雖然已經慢慢在習慣了一個人的生活



但是每次作夢還是不習慣



總是夢見不只自己



每次總是在意識跟潛意識間的強烈落差間驚醒



今天不知道是第幾次這樣子了



..........作夢好像都很美

How To Be Dead

還是聽音樂比較快樂

由雪警樂團所帶來的How to be dead



Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth

No you don't know what happened

And you never will if

You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall

This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall

Where you've had me for hours

Till I'm sure what I want

But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before

So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way



Please keep your hands down

And stop raising your voice

It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice

It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime

So just say yes or no

Why can't you shoulder the blame

Coz both my shoulders are heavy

From the weight of us both

You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth

You've not heard a single word I have said...

Oh, my God



Please take it easy it can't all be my fault

I haven't made half the mistakes

That you've listed so far

Oh baby let me explain something

It's all down to drugs

At least I remember taking the and not a lot else

It seems I've stepped over lines

You've drawn again and again

But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out

Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

繼續

畢業旅行從峇里島回到台灣已經 整整一個禮拜了

這七天來

我都不知道我在幹麻~

買回來的禮物、民俗藝品還散落在我的房間

失去鏡頭蓋的單眼相機 從回國的當天丟在桌子上 就再也沒有起身過了

記憶卡裡面1300張的照片

還是沒整理上傳....答應要沖洗給樓下小姐看的....也還沒做到



我是個很害怕安靜的人

因此平常也不喜歡睡覺

因為睡覺總是太安靜.....沒有辦法安靜的面對自己

因此總是把自己弄得筋疲力盡，才倒臥在床上..........



自己獨處的安靜是必然的，雖然我不喜歡，但是必須面對

這個暑假騎機車去合歡山來回的陸上，以80km的時速在縣道狂奔，在高聳曲折的山路迂迴

全罩安全帽裡面的世界，異常的安靜，外面的景色都向扭曲的時空般閃眼即過

除了安靜以外，只剩下我自己了~

我這麼跟自己講



的確

身邊人事物變化的速度比去合歡山的速度還快

去合歡山的路上也許一秒內位移了25M;

但是人心的變化一秒內卻能從高雄到台北

這麼快的速度中

外面的景色我都已經看不清了

安靜、靜默的這一刻



我只剩下我自己了







先買一個鏡頭蓋回來先吧